I know this thingie is bad for my health but like it's the only thing helping me stay awake. We win some, we lose some. I did a bit of research and apparently the reason the ONLY energy drink that works for me is this one cus the mix of all its ingredients like work for me idk, vitamin B, taurine n caffeine. Anyways I don't really recommend it and I'm honestly so tired of it but I need to be awake for class and allat. I'm thinking of making my own drink since I'm learning chemistry n might be able to do smth w it :). I'm going to India in a few days and I know the cans there r diff and it will have to figure out how to distribute it again. I usually drink half a 500ml can evenly throughout the evening to stay awake, and make sure I still feel it in the morning for class, honestly freezed monster is saviiing my gut this summer, cus like apparently the more you cool it and it gets hot it grows more bacteria, so freezing keeps it cool for a long while.
On time management: I was thinking bout that meme, and thought ngl it's a good idea. I deadass have no discipline so if I want to do smth I will do it and if I don't I won't (like Floyd) but man the last episode lasted like 3 damn weeks (didnt even stop at the plane, I looked like I needed an exorcism or smth). I gotta get my shit together and like maybe I will just put a reminder for half an hour when Im feeling too depressed and see how it goes.
On love: So I came across this tt (https://vm.tiktok.com/ZNd9sbnro/) and like thiiis, like so real, w take, what I've been trying to say but found a comment that said "you didnt love the person , you liked how they made you feel" and I was like pause, have I ever truly loved someone? I had this problem before that like if someone close to me died, I wouldnt mind. I wouldnt rlly feel anything sbout it, cus death is not a bad thing for me. And my mental health has gotten better etc and when I think about it a world where Cherry doesnt exist is heartbreaking to me. I often imagine lil silly isekai scenarios and like realistically not being able to ever contact Cherry again crushes my soul but do I really love her? How do I know that?